i'm reading hebrews right now and today i read hebrews 11. sometimes i get tired of reading the bible so i only read stuff i know i like and i know i like hebrews. i've been reading it in the message version that i got from young life as a christmas present and its been so good. hebrews 11 is like "the faith hall of fame" but that is a stupid name. it's all about all these people who did what god commanded them to do and stepped out on faith even though it was scary as dookie. sometimes i read this chapter and i get real pumped that like yes god delivers and his promises are true and he does all this cool stuff. but today i read it and got kinda bummed that like i don't know many things i've done on faith. i went to gardner-webb, 7 hours away from home and not knowing anyone, and i moved to colorado, 30 hours away from home and not knowing anyone. i don't think those deserve entry into the hall of fame. but then i just stopped to think about it and god doesn't have a hall of fame. he loves me just as much as he loves moses. maybe he just trusted moses more, i know i sure would i'm bound to mess things up and i couldn't lead anyone anywhere. uhhh this looks like the promised land okay let's hang out here. but god loves me for my faith that i do have. for loving others and choosing joy and choosing to live a life after him. and i am still encouraged that all the promises he made to people back in the day such as ^17-19By faith, Abraham, at the time of testing, offered Isaac back to God. Acting in faith, he was as ready to return the promised son, his only son, as he had been to receive him—and this after he had already been told, "Your descendants shall come from Isaac." Abraham figured that if God wanted to, he could raise the dead. In a sense, that's what happened when he received Isaac back, alive from off the altar.

so that promise was true and all his promises still are. even the silly ones that i know are true. he is good.

(i am way late to work...good thing my boss isn't here and ryan is still in the shower)