Sunday, December 25, 2011

emorganthompson: :( i love you]
and am praying
but i'll say
every good thing in my life
started out as a scary thing
where i had to trust god
and it's gonna be the same for you :)
plus, it's not forever!

glad emily morgan (emie? morgan?) is my best friend.

Isaiah 41:13

English Standard Version (ESV)


13 For I, the LORD your God,
hold your right hand;
it is I who say to you, “Fear not,
I am the one who helps you.”
I'm writing this in hopes that I can look back on it in four months (or three weeks) and realize how silly I was for feeling this way. This is not the first time I have gotten upset over the thought of moving to Colorado but this time it feels a lot closer and real. I just spent the best weekend ever with two of my brothers and it was seriously the best. Until 11 pm tonight when I had to say bye to Zachary and it was really bye until May. May seems so far away, it is December right now. Then Sam and I sat on the couch and watched more Adventure Time and laughed more and both fell asleep. I woke Sam up and told him we had to go to bed and he said I have to hang out with you tonight and for four more months to make up for the time we won't have. I don't know how I will survive four months without seeing and laughing in person with my best friend. In person, in car rides, in hours on the couch watching Adventure Time, in hard conversations, in laughs till we cry-that is how we are best friends. What will I do without that for four months? What will I do without Broad River Community Church? What will I do without the coffee shop and knowing I will always see my best friends there? What will I do without running endless circles around Boiling Springs and also knowing I am bound to run into someone I know. Where will I go instead of the prayer room in the chapel? What will I do without high school girls to hang out with at 707 thursday mornings at chic fil a and 727 monday nights? Will I have a church? Will I have hearing friends? Will I feel isolated? I am so scared. Will I cry when I drop my dad off at the airport? Will it be the longest sixteen weeks of my life?

God remind me that You are there. Give me peace. Deep sink in my bones peace. Give me hope like light like Megan. Help me trust in your unfailing word and love. Help me rest in the gospel of your love. Help me celebrate everytime I get to see snowfall. Help me be thankful about everything. Help me grow more in love with you than I ever have in my life. Help me seek you especially if I don't have a church. Help me know I'm not alone. You are good in these things God. I know you hold true to your promises. Help me discover new ways of seeking and being faithful and loving you and my family back in virginia and boiling springs. Help me not feel far from anyone. Spur pople on to sending me love and encouragement and help me to do the same. Lord, help me to not be afraid because at 12:24 am on December 26th I am.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Is it possible? will I actually blog this summer? Doubt it, but I would like to try to. I'm a horrible blogger and inept at using words and having thoughts. I am currently in my house where I have been for the past 2 weeks (besides some excursions out in the world of Northern Virginia) because my gas light came on yesterday and I don't have enough money to buy gas. Hard life. My puppy is gnawing on my big toe, he is three but maybe he decided to start teething. Or is becoming rabid. Hard to say. I'm currently lounging on my couch with sunshine pouring down on me from all the windows in my family room listening to David Crowder Band and reading One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. I started this book early April and then got busy with school and life and not studying for final exams. This book is changing my life. It is so good! She is so poetic and wise. She was trying to figure out the meaning of life to the full and how to acheive it and realized that to have full abundant life you need to live in a posture of gratitude.

Eucharistos εὐχάριστος - mindful of favours, grateful, thankful

So she was challenged to make a list of 1,000 things she was grateful for. She wrote the list and it's really neat to see the things she ended up being grateful for. Beautiful rainbow reflections on soap bubbles, washing warm eggs, warm cookies, moonlight on pillows, long prayers, chocolate on her sons upper lip. Gifts that God graciously lavishes upon us that we never even notice. As I have been reading this book I wrote down things in the moment I was thankful for-Scout sitting on my cold toes, Matthew and I rocking on his front porch telling the bees we loved them so they didn't sting us, Mama walking in the door and smiling when she saw me, sitting in Sam's bed crying with him. This book is making me more aware, making me live in that posture of being mindful of favors, grateful, and thankful. I'm only halfway through but it is so good and I'm savoring every word of it.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Lord you are true. You above all else are true. "hannah stop calling yourself an idiot you're not an idiot think about what is true and right. you are loved." take every thought obedient to Christ.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

let me do all your surgeries
well you cut my hair that one time...
nah im better with scissors to the throat

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

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bloggy blog blog. this is for you rebekah joy rausch. good thing you're my best friend and lying in bed next to me right now.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

God cares a lot more about our freedom than our maneuvering through life. -john piper

Monday, February 14, 2011

God's provision.

Freaking everywhere in my crazy life.

  • over $600 dollars in support for Nica trip in a week and a half
  • Brad Vaughn running with me yesterday and encouraging me in incredible ways
  • God knowing Sam and I would deal with such grief at times in our lives and let us be family members
  • Class being cancelled today when I couldn't go anyway due to the funeral.
  • Isaiah 41:13 being perfect
  • texts from Grandma and Aunt Colleen encouraging Sam and I
  • not even caring it's valentines day
  • Rebekah being in the room after lunch so I got to talk to her about all this crazy provision
  • having time on saturday to work out and go to the basketball game, both unplanned.
  • The body shop getting my car fixed
  • Steph and I grabbing lunch
  • beautiful friends and God multiplying time and energy to do all the things I want to do
  • getting to talk to Derrick and Taylor this past week
  • Katy B still being in my life for the long haul
  • Seeing Macey and Kindale and Anna Grace so much this weekend
  • Getting to love on Drew a lot lot lot
  • Paychecks coming at perfect times
  • Chelsea letting me talk everything out as much as I want to
  • Purple birthday cake working out
  • getting all my homework done at work
  • being at work and being able to talk to Sam last night
  • Josh Jones caring and atlking and letting me cry.
  • Chelsea bringing stuffed animals with her when she picked me up
  • Matt Orth being in my life a lot

Grief is hard. God is good and powerful. That is all I know. This was mostly for my sake, but maybe it is good for you too.

Friday, January 14, 2011

you make beautiful things out of us.

God is good.

Rebekah told me to start blogging. We're eating puppy chow and talking about boys. typical. I love her.

I AM A SENIOR IN COLLEGE. OH MY GOSH

too early for dinosaurs in my bed.

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