today i made a joke on one of chelsie's facebook pictures and apparently she learned i was funny and likes me a lot more now and we've been just cracking jokes all night. ahhhh walls coming down. we just drooled over all the toms online (megan i wish you were here!). i'll take the baby steps. i'm excited to get back to work, rest has been nice for sure but i feel bad sitting in the office just eating cookies all day and not doing work.

i read a lot of libby ryder's blog today and thought about my sister a lot and how close she is to being done with chemo and how exciting that is and how i'm still sad about it but how far she's come. i love her and miss her a lot.

a girl at gardner webb died today. i knew her but not closely but she was an amazing woman of christ. she had heart failure in class and died later in the hospital. selfishly i'm grateful i'm not at school because i struggled so much last semester with death and dying and have no desire to face it head on but my heart wishes so badly i was with my community to mourn.

now i'm about to go to bed watching up all night and the boys are stoned and eating a lot of peanut butter.