i'm currently shut in my office because interviews are going on in the hallway so i can't leave. since my door is shut anyway i figured it's a good time to blog. and i just got real fired up talking to emily on gchat.

sometimes i think christians worry so much about trying to do life the right way they do it all wrong. they dont love people well. they are quick to judge and say things are wrong. they are quick to be cynical and not joyful. i don't have life figured out by any means so this is just my opinion and probably not going to be backed up by anything except life experiences of myself or people i know. i've been one of these people. probably even today. but i hate it. i hate that we only celebrate things we are supposed to celebrate. i hate that we don't trust our friends, families, and peers judgements and are quick to shove our own thoughts and judgements down peoples throats (oh wait is that what i'm doing right now...) not everything is cookie cutter. life is messy. people are messy. life is funny and i think god is funny too. sometimes things can go so beyond the realm of acceptable and turn out to still be okay. sometimes people have to make their own choices and mistakes. chances are god is still there and still loves them and will turn things for good because that's what he promises.

philippians 1:6 says There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears.

Romans 8:28 says That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.


every detail. every mistake, every choice we choose that we know is wrong, everything. i'm not saying we should screw everything and live not exemplary lives because we know we have grace but sometimes things happen. sometimes we decide to take risks. i don't think we were made to not take risks. we weren't created in little plush boxes. god created this crazy sweet world to live in.

i think christians forget how to have joy. in choices i've made and friends have made lately many first reactions from our friends are hard questions or negativity or disapproval. why can't we trust each other? why can't we celebrate that people are taking risks and living life. you really do live and learn. why can't we celebrate the things we learn? i know that the things i do always lead me to see god better. to know my creator better. to trust him better. why isn't that celebrated or acknowledged? i'm not saying we should throw a party when people mess up but we should be more gracious and be excited that we are learning.

this is a rant and a poor one at that and i don't know. sam says i'm starting to sound like donald miller because i live out west and it really is crazy out here. maybe i am turning radical. maybe i'll get dreads in the next 6 weeks and more tattoos and start living a crazy radical life. i don't know. but i want to learn and love and seek the lord as much as i can and that's not going to happen if i don't take chances and risks and life a life full of eucharisto. if i sit in my room all day there's only so many things i can be grateful for. if i get out and live and experience life and people there is so much more i have to be grateful for, so much more of a scope of life and all these people that god created. because he did, he created all of them. so i'll choose to celebrate that.