my first big moon since moving back east. it was a harvest moon too which you can't tell because of my phone picture but it was orange and huge and so pretty. the lord is good and gives me good moons clearly when i need them the most. this week is the sucky suck suck town week in my life. my best friend jessica died 5 years ago on saturday and her birthday is today and she should be 22 instead of 17. so that is sad. and i get sad. and i think about her every day and it sucks more than life every day but still just extra hard this time of year. and i'm still jobless which is okay but just gives me ample time to think and be sad and cry on front porches.

but, moons are good. and the moon is always round. one time on summer staff this guy graham told me this story (actually i found it online so i didn't butcher it) A 14 year old girl who was slowly decaying from cancer was asked by her family to keep a journal. When she died, they found a note that said: “The moon is round.” As they read your journal they learnt that she meant that even when you can only see a sliver of the moon, you still know it is round. In the same way, she knew that even though she couldn’t fully understand what was going on, that God was sovereign.


apparently the girl was from tennessee like graham but i don't know. i've always thought about that story and how much i like it and today how it would be a good idea for a tattoo, either just the phrase the moon is round or an actual moon) but it is good. 


#summeroffun is fun. my house is fun. i live with katherine, elizabeth, and tiffany right now and a little white kitty named kitty. there are 6 other houses in bs that my friends live in. becap (erica, hillary, sarah, haley, paige, brittney-they have a good porch that i love), casa blanca (chelsea, courtney, april, tera, rachel), white house (logan, saxon, bri, kenzie, ben, brittany) pirate house (jonathan and justus) and the dude ranch (jordan, josh, michael) so ive been on a lot of porches, a lot of bonfires, a lot of laughing and loving. doors are unlocked and porches are open. jonathan just walked in with his roo cup (kangaroo gas station has cups that you buy so you can get 25 cent refills all summer long on slushees or drinks. ahhhhhhhhh) and tiff is studying and katherine and i are eating popcorn and we are watching our favorite portlandia clips. i should be filling out job applications - currently have Golden Toe (sock company), osh kosh, crocs, banana republic, gap, adidas, dollar general, justice, and limited too. add those to the 20 places i applied yesterday. ugh ugh ugh. 


the moon is round.