just went through all my old myspace messages (which is the most embarresing thing i've ever done maybe.) and found the first time i ever talked to jessica

Feb 1, 2006

jessica. says

ohhh, hey, hey. oh. oh. sweet. i'm adding you.
& chya, we should definitely talk. cat power & agsfb are glooorious.


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Hannah (Picture) Paige
Date: Feb 1, 2006 6:20 PM

hey, i'm hannah, obviously and you are in like 0573067 of my classes. or maybe 2. but you seem like a hella cool kid and you like cat power& all girl summer fun band and that pretty much makes you amazing. we should talk sometime.

glad i was awkward and tried to impress her and glad she loved me. i only found one other message which is a bummer but...

jessica. says

hannah, i never ever ever ever ever look at bulletins, but i saw the 'attention' thing, and HEY, that's amazinly cool, and i love you.




:]









8)

:] yep.

she loved me. she was real and she loved me. i also found a message from her brother jake after she had her first tumor removed and before they knew she had cancer and the 

message was like she's doing great the surgery went great. which was hard to read. 

i just read my xanga (dang i keep getting cooler) and remembered this post

i heard paris hilton's song the stars are blind when i found out jessica had cancer and five years to live. i heard yellow submarine by a band at liana gilb's graduation party when i found out she passed away. i listened to paramore's cd Riot literally probably 50 times the day of the funeral.

si've since associated the songs The War by Melee, Life Run Deep by PW Gopal, and So Much Beauty in Dirt by Modest Mouse with jessica. 


just miss her.