my friend erica inspired this blog. she's about to go to grad school at ECU and is real scared. it'll be okay though erica!

we talked last night about how god doesn't call us to do something and then makes us do that thing he called us to do on his own. this morning i read matthew 14 and it talked about jesus walking on water and how peter asked to be called out onto the water and jesus obliged but then peter doubted and got scared and fell when he stopped looking at jesus. i think this is so us sometimes. we asked to be called to do something, or just ask god for something to happen and things work out and fall into place and that thing does happen and it's almost like we forgot we wanted that thing in the first place. then we get scared and nervous and doubt and start to sink because we think we can do it on our own. but we can't. if god leads us to this place of doing this thing he's going to see it through. it's going to be okay because god ordained it to happen. or maybe god let it happen, i don't know but i do know he is sovereign and things do work out. crazy things like falling off the mountain when mountain biking with my high school girls turned into like 20 young life talks. or real things like going to colorado and being scared and having it be the hardest and best 5 months of my life. things really do work out. but we need to not be scared punks and remembered that we asked for the call sometimes. and remember that god is really big. and does big things. and never has the intention of leaving us to sink or fall.